Getting back on the horse.

It's been a while since my last post.  And I know some of my faithful readers (ahem Erika) have been waiting.  So I'll start with why it has taken so long for me to write.  I kind of fell off the horse a bit.  There hasn't been any weight gain, per say, but it's my special lady time (or shark week as I like to call it) and my cravings are up, my motivation is down, and my discomfort is through the roof.  Normally I'm pretty good about redirecting my cravings but this is the first cycle I've had to go through on this program and I wasn't really prepared for it.  So I caved.  I'm not going to list out what I ate because then I'll start thinking about food again, and I don't want that to happen.  I will tell you that there are about 437 better ways for me to spend that money.  And next time, I think what I'll do is write down a few and use that as my motivation not to spend it.  The great thing is, that the only weight that I've gained is that the normal water/bloating weight.  So in a few days when this is all behind me I'll be able to see where I'm at and what the actual damage was.  Another contributing factor was that I ran out of the bars and snacks that I like.  I guess I underestimated how many I would actually eat. So, this time around, my whole order was bars, shakes, and snacks since I still have the soups and chili left from the first order.  Hopefully, this won't happen again. I experienced a bit of a setback at the gym this week as well. My physical therapist has been out of town, and of course my leg would start bothering me.  I tried to run last week and I was fine until 2 days later and I've been in pain ever since.  I put icy hot on before and after working out and take Excedrin just to dull the pain a bit so I can make it through the workout.  But it doesn't really help. I feel it, and it's terrible.  I'm trying to push through the pain because nursing my wounds won't help any.  No pain, no gain right?

I've decided to join a gym.  The base gym is nice and everything but it's too far for me to go to on the weekends and all of the classes they offer are during the day when I'm at work.  The gym down the street offers Zumba (which I love), night classes, circuits, a separate workout room for women (which is great!), and a 5 am boot camp class.  I'm going to find a way to wake up that early and go to one to see how it is.  I got a free trial for it so we'll see.  Fingers crossed that it works out for me. I just feel so lost at the gym most days, the classes will help a lot and they have trainers on site.

So what do we take away from this?  Periods suck, and if you're a guy reading this I apologize but you kids had to learn someday. lol But even though they happen, and they just rip your insides out and make you feel and think irrational things, you have to deal with it just like everything else.  I'm hoping that my week of weakness will help you all see that falling down is just as important as getting back up.  The only thing you have to be careful of is how long you stay down once you get there. It's ok to fall but try not to linger and don't dwell on it.  If you do, you'll drive yourself insane and you'll prolong your stay.  So, I'm getting up, dusting myself off, and getting back on the horse. It's definitely going to be a bumpy ride, but I'm strapped in and ready.  I have a few months to get this right and I'm determined to see this through.